=577 CALORIES, BABY!
And restricting even more tomorrow :)
Breakfast- 1/3 scoop oatmeal (100) + 1 serving mangoes (60)
Lunch- 2 green apples (64) + 1 cereal bar (140)
Dinner- 1 serving fish curry (372) + 1 serving rice (160)
Snacks- 2 slices ham + 3 slices cheese (40) + 7 jalepenos + red peppers + 1/2 fuji apple (40)
15 min treadmill (-150)
Purged dinner (-45% = -239)
Oh, score! Tomorrow, I am planning on taking out ALL my snacks and the cereal bar. This should leave a total of:
=824 without exercising and purging.
So, WITH exercise, that should equal at least:
824 - 150=674
And if I restrict breakfast and dinner:
674 - 50 - 100 = 524.
I'm trying not to purge anymore. I know it's horribly unhealthy and I don't want to do it. Here is my motive:
I only purge when I eat too much.
Purging is unhealthy.
If I don't want to purge, I shouldn't eat as much.
Perfect motive :)
Tomorrow I'm going to buy some caffeine pills, and I'm also going to carry around some Tums with me. Yaaay.
I can do this. I am doing this. I will do this. Every day it gets better.
One problem I have: when I get hungry, I always go and eat peanut butter. Only a little at a time, but it adds up. What can I do to stop this? I know that I don't have the willpower to not. Is there any food that I can binge on that isn't fattening but tastes just as good? Anybody have any good binge food?
I'm thinking maybe raisins, or cereal? Or something of the sort.
Also, this makes me happy: 10 calorie hot chocolate that is HEALTHY for you. Yes, that's right. Okay, so it may not taste like the great, 300 calorie ones filled with cream and chocolate, but it's a good substitute and is great to drink around other people because they don't know it's actually only 10 calories instead of 500.
1 tsp of pure cocoa powder + water = hot chocolate!
Cocoa powder is full of caffeine, which helps you lose weight, and it is also surprisingly filling because it's not just water, it's water with another substance. So it keeps you pretty full.
Actually, maybe that would make a good binge food...
I haven't tried yet, but I assume that if you add some other tasty things it will be just as good as the fattening stuff. Right now it's quite bitter, but if you added some splenda, maybe a little milk, cinnamon? It might be good. And not very fattening either. Grrreat.
Also, another really great thing when you're binging: if you're a spicy food fan, add peppers to EVERYTHING! They increase your metabolism, so you don't have to feel as guilty about eating when you do binge. It's great. Today I had some slices of ham and cheese, but I added tons of peppers to it so hopefully my metabolism spiked just as I ate!
I'm so pleased with myself. I feel so happy. The only problem is, I feel full. This freaks me out. When I'm full, I just assume I ate too much.
I have to stop eating so much at home, but I can't- food is my distraction, and it is readily available.
And after I purge, I get hungry.
Hmmm...what should I do...?
PS, in response to Jane:
Thanks for your support! It really helps knowing there are people out there reading this blog, it definitely makes me more determined. Although I don't have a scale, I do think I have lost some weight...before, around my stomach I was getting a little bit pudgy. Now, however, I think I'm a little bit more toned! Before when I ate, my stomach used to go a tiny little bit outwards from the bottom of my ribcage. Now, my stomach goes a little bit inwards, and when I walk sometimes I can feel my bottom ribs poke out!
It makes me happy :) Now I just need to lose some weight on my legs...seriously, I have THUNDER THIGHS. My mom and brother tease me about my treestumpish legs. But I will do it, and I will soon achieve the beautiful twig-thin legs I have always wanted.
Just keep posting, guys, you give me determination!
Tomorrow, I'm going to try to reduced to >550. Yeah!
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