Fuck. I just fucked EVERYTHING up with everyone.
I told B I didn't think it was a good idea not to talk anymore, and he has just completely cut me off and now I realize that I can't do it without him.
I have now had to admit to S EVERYTHING- yes, including this- and am hoping that mine and B can talk at least a little bit again.
So now he knows, and B will know, and they will never think of me in the same way again.
Will keep you posted.
2 years ago