Monday, November 3, 2008

3/11/08

I'm so unhappy right now. Tried to talk to B, but he didn't talk to me barely at all, and it just depresses me. Ate a little too much today, but was still alright...

I'm so stressed out...ugh. So. stressed. out. and. I. hate. it. I. can't. take. it. any. more.

Only did 20min on the treadmill and was exhausted...but I can't give up, right?

I can't give up...I have to keep going, no matter what, to achieve my goals in life...

I will become a surgeon, I will lose weight, I will reach 90.

My family keeps on making jokes about my weight. I guess I'll have to show them, right?

I'm thinking under 1000? But still am feeling full...

I'll ease back into it...I'll get slim around the belly again, and then slim around the bum, and then the hips, and then the thighs, and then soon maybe I'll be slim...

5 ft 2...110 pounds...working towards 105...then 100...then 95...then 90...

generally...striving for perfection...

4 comments:

belle svelte said...

don't you just love family.

hah. you'll be a surgeon if you stick to it, just don't exhaust yourself.

other than that, you'll make it, just have faith in yourself.

i'm finding it rather hard these days...but practice scores always seem to be higher when i just believe. hahah talk about being sentimental =)

other that, focus focus focus xx

hey.hana said...

That's FUCKED up. Tell them ((your family)) to shut the fuck up. That is NOT cool for them to refer to your body or weight in a negative
or even any way ever if you don't want them to.

Who tought these kids manners?

Don't worry, I know you will accomplish all of these things in time.

Keep it up. It works if you work it ;D
xo Hana

jane said...

You have such great ambitions, and from your blog I can tell you are actively working towards your goals. Be proud of that. Some people always dream but never achieve them because they don't even make an effort.
yes, don't give up.

nadja said...

why would they make jokes like that?!! i get so ANGRY, nobody should be allowed to joke about anybody's weight! hang in there, girl.