14/9/08

Just started sixth form, so I haven't had the time to post. It is SO HARD! The work is insane, and not only do I not get it, but I am one of the few who don't. I got 5 A*s, 4 As and 2 Bs on my GCSEs, which was one of the best grades in my school. I have regularly met people who have gotten 7 or mor A*s, sometimes even 13 A*s! So, feeling stupid much? I've met some nice people around, including some HK Chinese ones so yay! Not really properly friends with them yet, but am getting to know them so that is good. Talked to my ex, I'll call him B from now on, which was good. He says he's glad everything got sorted and that we took a break so we could sort out our feelings, and said he still feels the same for me as before. (admittedly, I did ask him and I think he got a little bit annoyed because he said, 'I thought we sorted this out.') Which is good. Now that I've started a new school I've been a little bit more whack than usual, and without him (as a boyfriend or not) I am completely unstable. He is actually my pillar of stability. People tend to like my kookiness, but not many people know how out of control I get when I'm stressed. So really, although no one really knows it, I'm less kooky than completely neurotic and am getting really, really OCD. I also totally stress binged this week. It was terrible. I ate peanut butter, cookies, cereal, just TONS of carbs and it was disgusting. I would come home after barely eating all day and eat, eat, eat, eat, eat. I feel nauseous even now. But tomorrow is a new week, I'm joining the school gym, am getting my work sorted, making new friends and DEFINITELY eating well this week! Now that I'm getting sorted and even more so now that I've got my pillar back, I'll be definitely more disciplined. Health fast, anyone?